Always Holding On

by HRBRS

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HRBRS is:
Matthew Gutierrez / Vocals
Nico Adair / Guitar
Jack Shoemaker / Guitar
Danny Horner / Bass
Tylor Wagner / Drums

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released July 23, 2013

All songs written by HRBRS
Cover photo by Kara Souza
Recorded / Mixed at The Earth Capital Studios
Mastered by Azimuth Mastering

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We're a something-core band from southern California.

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Track Name: Hollowed Out
Will I ever escape this prison I've created for myself?
A shallow grave hollowed out by my own hands.

Existence is temporary. I am my own suffering. Destined to repeat for eternity.

I'm constantly torn between bettering myself and giving up entirely.

We are nothing more scars lining the walls of hollow hearts.
Bruised and broken, but still beating. Still alive.

The fire in my eyes doesn't burn so bright these days.
Track Name: 1993
Bring me back to the days before I lost faith in everything.

I know my faults. They burrow through my chest and shake me to my bones.

I've become one with emptiness. Inseparable. My personal void. I don't deserve to live like this.

Going through the motions. Empty words fall from my mouth.
Overwhelmed by waves of self doubt.
Sinking through the cracks. Losing contrast.
I've become the ghost.

All I loved I loved alone.

They say that things get better, that time heals all wounds. I'm just getting older, waiting for death bring me home.

Just waiting for death to bring me home.
Track Name: Heart/Home
Where do I turn when every line has been read? What's left to say when everything's been said?

Life goes on and I have been left behind.
Entirely consumed in my own mind.

Every nameless street pulls me further away from where I want to be. The kind of disconnect that severs the ties to anyone and anything.

Home is where my heart left everything behind.

I've made so much progress, just to lose it all. Struggling everyday to live with the choices that I've made. Drowning in the distance between everything I am and everything I wanted to be.

Empty roads lead nowhere. I know I don't belong there.
Track Name: The Give And Take
A wolf in shepherd's skin. Show me what it's like to feel alive. Vacant eyes watching the world turn away. Searching for meaning in empty routines.

The epitome of my repeated failures. I succumb to the weight. Fire kindled from misfortune. A life born of mistakes.

Every promise kept tightens the rope around my neck. A grave seems more fitting than a lead full of regret.

The epitome of my repeated failures. I succumb to the weight. Fire kindled from misfortune. A life born of mistakes.

Shoulder the weight. There are still mountains left to move.

A wolf in shepherd's skin. This is how I show that I survived.
Track Name: Closure
I didn't want this to mean so much to me. I didn't want this to be everything. Wasting away on shattered thoughts and broken dreams. This used to be everything.

We gave everything and saw nothing in return.

I gave everything. I gave all of me. Now there’s nothing left. I have nothing left. I gave everything. I gave all of me. Now there’s nothing left. I have nothing.

Let everything you love tear you apart.

Everything we love (will tear us apart).

I didn’t want this to mean so much to me. I didn’t want this to be everything. Wasting away on shattered thoughts and broken dreams.

We gave everything. I gave everything.
Track Name: Losing Balance
Foundations fall away before my eyes. A testament to everything I've left behind.

Bury me deep beneath earth and stone. A monument to the discontent I've grown to know.

Losing balance. I've lost my peace of mind.

Reduced to nothing but a memory. A curse.
Track Name: Wasted Breath
I wonder if the clothes on your floor weigh as much as what you carry around in your chest. I've been waiting here for weeks and I can see it in the way you carry yourself.

So sink -- through my chest and float past my spine, far below the bed frame and out of my mind. I've shut the door and I've blacked out your name. You mean nothing anymore.

I'll keep the bed warm, but I sleep alone these days. Your name like poison in my veins. This is my hell. Just watch me decay.

So sink -- through my chest and float past my spine, far below the bed frame and out of my mind. I've shut the door and I've blacked out your name. You mean nothing anymore.

Steady breathing through empty lungs.

I can't believe I wasted it all on you.
Track Name: Unmoved
This chasm in my chest swallows me whole. I can feel myself drifting away.

No Home. No shelter. At war with myself.

Obsolete by design. There's nothing left but failure to find.
I can feel myself drifting away. Counting seconds to a new tragedy.
Every waking hour, a lifetime away.
So much wasted time wishing things would change.

Isolated. Cast aside. I left everything I loved behind.
Track Name: Always Holding On
This uncertainty is all I have and I'd give it all away to keep that sun from setting. Fragmented. Staring into empty reflections. A mere shade of my former self.

Just out of reach. Wandering endlessly. I'm at the crossroads between here and everything. This uncertainty is all I have.

Where do I go from here? I can see where I want to be. I just never know how to leave. I've let go of my greatest fears. I've loved and I've lost. I lost it all.

Just out of reach. Wandering endlessly. I'm at the crossroads between here and everything. This uncertainty is all I have.

Always holding on to what that keeps moving. I hold it close.

One step forward. Two steps back. This is all I have.